I almost always catch myself thinking if I should finally fold, and give up my dreams of having the on the one thing that I really want. I feel that this situation of mine is bordering stubbornness and well yes, following my heart and my happiness. Then I go back to the premise that the "bigger the sacrifice, the greater happiness" but at this point will this pain eventually be worth it? Will it be what I hoped for or am I in for more emotional damage. Life is sometimes frustrating and disappointing but one must never give up the fight. I will not give up, until I have nothing else to do, but that.

"Hindi lang ako nagsasalita, kasi wala naman akong importante sasabihin"
-Gibson, Ang Nawawala, 2012

There should be more "Ang Nawawala" movies produced. Simple plot but presented in the most interesting way with depth and emotion, real emotion. I fell in love with how simple this movie and yet so stunningly amazing it is. Reality at its finest. Oh, how I love, indies.

On Watching the US Open

Good things really never come easy, just watching the US Open Mens Final 2012, you know that they'd have to work for every point in every game in every set to finally win this one. Novak Djokovic on side, Andy Murray on the other. You know your in for a good match with these two. There may have been spectacular rallies, and there have been really bad ones, and there have been aces here and there. By watching the match, any person would also feel the emotional rollercoaster of emotion that came along with it. The momentum shift, the bad returns, the really good winners. You'd want them both to win just for fighting hard for this match; the first set alone was 87 minutes long! Bloody hell it was intense. But despite leading 2-0 and going down on the next two rounds, Andy came up with the victory. Breaking the drought in British tennis and proving to himself and tennis followers that he could be big and win a grand slam title.

Congrats on your first Grand Slam title, Andy! Its a long time coming.

If there's one thing I gained from watching this close to 5 hour match, its this-- work hard on your dream and when your stars align perfectly, the right moment comes, and you tell yourself, all the wait-- the loses, the frustrations, the doubts and the almost theres, were all worth it. Finally you have in your hands what you've always hoped for. So go ahead Andy and give yourself a tap on the back and get some more.

I don't think I can ever call you my friend anymore, no matter how much I miss (talking to) you.

Its funny that some of us are afraid of opening up to people who we know would always question our decisions. Its like we can only accept ideas that would make our egos feel good. But a healthy conversation, divulging both the good and the bad, would open up doors to more realizations and it results to a better decision in the end. Lets not be stubborn in dealing with different aspects in our lives.

Observe. Read. Listen. Learn. Write.
I remember my professor once said: "You should know a little about a lot of things than learning all things about one thing."

Defy the stereotypes of the society.
Shock the world with how good you really are.
Shock yourself with how good you are.
Then once you've done that go back to the corner of your room;
Re-evaluate yourself and prepare to shock the world even more.

"Okay. Good-bye, Claudia," he says softly. "Be well."
"You, too," I say, feeling unbelievably empty inside. I can't ever remember feeling this lonesome. As I hang up, I tell myself to memorize the ache in my chest just in case I ever get any more bright ideas to get in touch with Ben. I don't want to be reminded of what I no longer have.

-Baby Proof, Emily Giffin

I've been alone for so long that I forgot how it is to be around people until tonight. 

Life is what you make it. Its all about your perception in life. Be happy and grateful for what you have, pray for the things that didn't quite get right. One's outlook in life is vital in living it.