This is making me think long hard. Am I cut out for this? I definitely hope so. Lets see how the next few days will turn out. But if this is the 'answer' to my prayers, then by all means, I'm ready to jump and enjoy whats next. I have never enjoyed something as geniunely as I did the past couple of days. :)

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What happens next? What happens after all of this is done? Questions I've been repeating to myself endlessly for some days now. No one really knows. But what comes next, I have this to thank for.

Its amazing how I can be a witness of dreams unfolding right before my eyes and I can't wait to see mine happen to. Just give me time to figure out what next to do, what my ultimate dream really is.

Today, I wrote again. Trying to re-direct myself. Hopefully it helps. Hopefully, by the time all of this over, I know the next step.

Thank you for this 'break' that I get to see the importance of going after what you want and the happiness that fills you, when the things you only used to dream about and your reality is just one and the same.

Today, I realized that theres still so much I hold back.  Too many emotions that needs to be released. Too much and anger and spite. Then, I just realized that its not me that has been depending a lot on people, its them that does. And its gone for too long now. And it frustrates me more than anything. For someone that wants to just always be doing something. Good one, self.

If only I could feel less.

If only I could be more.

If only.

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