'"Never stop dreaming of whats best for you"

Something I've heard in Liveloud.

"Believe in your dreams, they are YOUR dreams"

Something I heard while driving yesterday.

"20 seconds of courage, 20 seconds of embarrassing bravery"

Something I heard from We bought A Zoo.


These maybe just extreme case of coincidence but these phrases, are the words that I needed to hear. I guess all I needed were affirmations and I got those. I believe now, ITS TIME.

Sabi nga sa "Book of Answers": Adopt an adventurous nature. (Not really sure with the last word but gets?)

Hopefully everything turns out the way it is in my head in the next couple of days, but if not, there's nothing to regret, atleast I tried.

Judgment and Knowing

Judging a person and knowing a person are two different things. We are subjected to judging based on how we see them or how they are wanted to be seen. From a distance and from what we know of them, from the hearsays of many others around us. There comes a point in our life, where we get the chance to know that person and sometimes to our surprise they are not exactly who we thought they were.

Perception towards a person is one of the most objective things in life. It varies from one person to another. It varies from a persons' point of view and on how open-minded the other person is. A lot of people are misunderstood, and a lot are boxed in stereotypes. Sometimes, its just so hard for other people to understand another because of the judgement that they already had prior to getting to know the person.

In my life I've learned that as much as first impressions do last, judgement often doesn't. Sometimes, you'd be surprised at how opposite that person really is. Its just disappointing on how people expect judgments of others to be true or just generalizing another's personality for a single thing he's done. No judgement shall be put on anyone without knowing who that person and what made that person resort to such thing. Next time you meet another person, know them, and I mean really know them before saying anything. 

A Friendly Reminder

There is something scary in uncertainty. The new beginning. The unknown seems so vast that it could consume you inside. It seems so dark that all you can think about are what ifs. But as people say, don't let life happen, make YOUR life happen. There are times that you need to let go of your doubts and just trust the man above that He has plans for you and remember He won't let you go astray. I always tell everyone to follow your heart and I think its time for me to listen to myself. Every wasted day is wasted opportunity to fly; fly higher than the birds above, where the view is prettier and brighter.

Nostalgia

So last night, I read one of my closest college friend's year-end entry in her blog and it made me nostalgic of the good times I had with my classmates. I know its crazy, but the latter part of our college life, we literally missed each other despite seeing everyone everyday. Its the only time I knew that it could be possible, miss some people that much. Its crazy! Since we were all busy we barely got the chance to catch up and if we had the time too, we were too loud and that's the noise that I actually miss the most. These group of girls are the best friends one could have a mix of fun, smart, crazy college girls, everyday seemed like a normal day, that we all got a good nights sleep and we don't have a deadline in the next few hours. So let me introduce to you the people behind me, if not for them I wouldn't be who I am. Yes, as much as they are my college blockmates they are also the people who believed in me when I never did. 

My class! This was during the final rehearsals for graduation and our departmental picture taking.
Top Row (L-R): Cerina, Alex, Kikx, Ayra, Ria, Phoebe, Ann, Gelli, Ysche, Set Byul, Tiff, Fatima
Bottom Row: Me, Melinda, Kaiz, Marg, Bianx, Anne

Shakey's Katip. Its always where we eat out as a class even now, that we're done with school.
Clockwise (L-R): Alex, Bianx, Kaiz, Fatima, Gelli, Anne Tongo, Ann Marcos, Cerina, Ayra, Phoebe,  Tiff, Kikx, Ria

With my college barkada. I wouldn't know how and who I'll be without them!
Always making my day better and making me eat! :)
Clockwise (L-R): Marg, Marsha, Melinda, Frou, Ann, Me, Ysche, Anne 

With two of the people I spent my endless nights with. Tiff and Cerina

With my first friends in college ever! With Pia and Marsha

After Activate. One of the most stressful things we've done! The re-launch of MC's Communication Department. Congrats CA3!!! :)

Who would have thought we could actually play a decent basketball game.
Top Row (L-R): Sir David, Aizel, Me, Ayra, Cerina, Tiff, Bianca
Bottom Row: Anne, Marg, Gelli, Kaiz

After the awards night for Bidyo Fest 2010. (L-R) Bianx, Cerina, Ayra, Me, Gelli, Ms. Ethel

This maybe the most stressful of all time project we actually had to come up with. Our  short film that we were asked to make in 2 weeks. I'm proud of our production and I am even happier that we got recognized during the awards night. OMG. Who would have thought. And I'm just happy to have spent this moment with my CA3 loves.

Taken during our last field trip. This was inspired by ANTM's Petite Cycle, which btw, we were watching on the bus! I have crazy crazy classmates, believe me, and mind you this is just half of us.
Clockwise (L-R): Aizel, Ann, Fae, Gelli, Marg, Ayra, Cerina, Bianx, Anne, Marsha, Ysche

I wouldn't have been able to graduate from college without them. So many memories. We missed each other despite seeing them everyday, so what more now, that we don't even get to talk with each other. I read somewhere that goodbye's are meaningless and temporary. There's always a next time to see them around. So to my beloved CA3, I will see you again soon. Lets all relieve the good old days, until then, take care and God Bless!

In 2012

Its 2012, and it is just fitting to write about my 'resolutions' as my first blog for the year.

Before I write down my list, it needs to be said that I never do resolutions because I know deep in my heart that none of it will ever be accomplished. I remember that I made a promise to myself to believe in me and I take this to be a challenge. This year I will challenge myself, in  every way possible.

This list is not in order, I'll just write the resolutions that randomly pop in my head.

1 - Be less impulsive. Less impulsive in shopping! I have a problem saving because I'm such an impulsive buyer. I have a ton of clothes because I just buy clothes that I think look pretty on  me not knowing where to wear it. So I have a couple of clothes that I haven't worn, yes with the tags on! To be honest, I do have some clothes that I only have worn just once. I always think that I could wear it again, but if its time for 'dressing up' I already have another set of clothes in mind since that was recently purchased thus its once again pushed to the sides of my closet. And also sa super dami ng damit ko, I run out of hanger and closet space so what I do is, I de-clutter my closet to have hangers and just pile up clothes to be sent to the province. And its not just in clothes, but also with shoes. My shoe closet doesn't have space anymore. Naawa na ako sa sapatos ko please, it needs more space. Okay, this will be the toughest for sure.

2 - Be less judgemental. I take it back, this maybe even harder that the first one. I don't know, but I do seem to always have a say on  people. I know its bad but sometimes, when their clothes are not well put-together it really gives me eye-sore. I mean, I may not be the best dresser, but I would like to believe that I know how to put my clothes together and well. Its just really hard to not comment on them. And yes, I do have a say on everything and sometimes, well most of the time, I think aloud. This is bad really. So yes, I will try to change this. As much I could.

3 - Be less sarcastic. Yes. I will be less sarcastic. But sometimes, one couldn't help it but be sarcastic with stupid questions and reactions, so please do me a favor and use your common sense more often so that it will make things easier for me too. Thanks. Okay this maybe humor for some but others don't handle sarcasm well, and sometimes my comments are too sarcastic that its too realistic and I know it hurts so yea. I will try my best.

4 - Read a book EVERY month. I've been reading books a lot especially since I had been stuck at home for months now, but the thing is, I only read when I'm in the mood and I would like to make it a point to read at least one book every month. There is a pleasure in reading books, especially the really ones you could relate to, it seems like someone else knows how exactly you feel, the words you want to say, the things you want to do. In reading I gain new perspective and it makes me think of things, and I do want to think because I feel mature every time, I think and realize something new.

5 - Be more patient with other people. I am makulet, yes but I don't know, it just annoys me if the person I am talking to is super kaduper kulet. I can't really explain but gets, sometimes OA na lang kasi magreact yung tao, you just wanna shout at their faces and say "OO NA, GETS KO NA PWEDE MOVE ON NA TAYO, OA na eh!"   I don't know, I really have low tolerance on people sometimes I just wanna be alone and there are times I crave to be around people.

6 - Be less 'caring' with people. Okay, this may sound off but seriously, this item could spare me less trouble. I mean I care about the people that are important to me and really, it sucks to care so much especially if they don't want you to care. So yes, if you tweet sad shit on twitter, I will try my best not to ask you, 'what's wrong?' in the past years I realized that if someone needed someone to talk to, they wouldn't tweet their feelings and instead really talk to that person. So ikaw kung nagpapapansin ka lang, please spare me the trouble of thinking what may be wrong with you. Kung nagpapaawa ka at nagpaparining ka lang, also do the world a favor and don't tweet it. I know its emotional release pero naman, if you're not willing to talk about it, don't let others empathize with you. So again I appeal, please help me do this by not letting me know how you feel.

7 - Prioritize. My schedule, my time, my priorities. I mean, I want to do a lot of things, I have different sets of friends and its just hard to like do jumble everything up not to mention my occasional sumpongs of tamaditis. So yea, this year, I promise to make sure I get to meet everyone up. Okay, this is kind of crazy knowing that I don't have a job and yet I seemed so pre-occupied pano na lang kung meron na? Oh well. I shall pray for this one. 

So I guess that's the end of it and while writing this, I thought of the things that I want to do for this year, all general and hopefully I get to fulfill it! This year, I will try more often, learn more things (cultures, trivias, sports etc.) travel to more places, learn some more, eat food that i haven't tasted, go out of my comfort zone, make more friends, meet more people, stray from the norm and the list goes on. And this year, I want to make my life different from what I used to not because this maybe the end of the world, but because I do believe that its time.

So, I just realized that most of the things written here are my resolutions to how I respond to other people. Maybe I have really matured over last year and this year, its time to make it happen. But really what I really prayed for this during the New Years mass is this, to be less indecisive. Yes, I've been more safe than sorry all my life and this year I prayed to God to just give me the courage to go after what I really want, to not mind the what ifs and just take the leap. This will be hard, this will need a lot of prayer, a lot of conversations with God, but hey who wouldn't want to have that right? I know I couldn't do it alone, so yes, this year I will surrender to God's will. He will make my greatest dream come to life and I just can't wait to start this year! :)