Easter means hope. And just like Christ' rising from the dead, may we find it in our hearts to learn the true meaning of hope. More important than Christ's birth is His rising from the dead. We are victorious because of HIM. We are given new life and may we find more meaning and purpose in it. May we live it the way, Jesus did, in service and with a heart full of love and complete faith in His Father.

I hope everyone had a blessed and meaning couple of days.

TSP :)

The other day I finally got the chance to watch Teen Saint Pedro The Musical. Imagine they started staging September 2012 and I only saw it last Wednesday, March 27. What kind of a friend am I?!?! :))

Snippets from the play

Saint Pedro's life reminded me again of a life that is lived according to God's will. How he willing said YES to his mission is something I'd always pray I could be able to do on daily basis. Despite being in the YFC community for the past 9 years, its always a struggle for me to keep saying YES to God's missions and plans for me. To trust God of His plans for me. I know it sounds ridiculous but I believe that we, as a people have a tendency to be over-controlling of how our lives should be. Its hard to just follow what God wants us to do without knowing whats to come. Its really putting our faith in Him that He has our best interest and He always does. Saint Pedro died on his mission in Guam serving and being loyal to God, at the age 18, it is seldom to see teens with as much faith like his. I pray that one day, I could have a faith like His. Unfaltering despite the odds. Serving with so much love.

After watching the play, I reflected on my faith in God and how often I say YES to Him. How evident He is in how my life turns out to be. At a time where I am confused most of the time. I pray for God to enlighten me, on what's best for me. Relationship with God is all about communication. His love his manifested not only on YES-es but also on diversions God throws at us.


I might have stalled watching this musical and now I know why, because there couldn't have been a more perfect time but now, when I am starting to pick my pieces up and understanding my faith and myself even more. It is also an absolute perfect time to reflect about God's love, what Jesus' death means to us and our personal faith in the Lord.

On a last note, it's always nice to go back to one's roots. And this time its YFC :)

I love these girls! More than friends, we are sisters :)

03102013 | One Esplanade

Because for every sunset, there is a tomorrow in the horizon. 

Life is being such a tease right now. On some days, its really good and on others it leaves me confused. I'm just thankful that there are still days, that I can slow down and say thank you, because despite of so many things going on, I am slowly finding my way out of the slump I am in. 

Letting go is never easy, especially of something you've always wanted for so long.

It is a process, it takes time and a whole lot of effort. 

But it is only in letting go that you could be able to see other opportunities for you.What else you might like in the world that offers you every bit of everything.

Chasing after your own happiness, is as much of a process as it is of letting go.

You have to go through a bit of sadness, a bit of heartbreak and even a bit of disappointment.

It will be painful and at the same time worth it.

Letting go gives you that, the satisfaction of the little pain and the chance to be happy.

The other day, I was beating myself up because I couldn't seem to form decent sentences for my cover letter. I've been work-less for a long time now, and to find something that I really really really want, I wanted to make sure that I give them the best impression of myself  but not overkill it. I had to really look back to what's written in my CV just to make sure that everything I write down do make sense once they evaluate my application. This is when I realize how hard it is to want something really really really bad, you'll not settle for good enough. And going through this process was the only time that I knew for sure that it is what I see myself doing years from now. Its nice to have that moment of clarity, its helps you put certain things in proper perspective. Remember, the only way to enjoy success is to work really really really hard for it and at it.

01282013

Friendships just like any other is a 2-way street. You can't be friends with someone who doesn't want to be yours. You see, in any relationship there is, give-and-take, which helps you both grow in the relationship and as people. Once you feel the other is slipping away, you feel wary and try to talk things over and work some things out. Friendships just like relationships should never be forced. It should come naturally for two people who genuinely enjoy each other's company despite your difference. So if you feel like you give way too much with you not getting anything back, maybe its time for you to start re-thinking your relationship. Never be blinded by the label of 'friend' or 'being friends with', because really, if you love yourself, you have to get away from your toxic relationships. Even if you're friends with the richest and most powerful, that wouldn't matter if you don't get enough of the relationship. Not that you should be asking for anything but sticking with those that takes you for granted, makes you look at yourself, lesser than who you truly are.

Remember the people closest to you, influence who you become. Make sure you surround yourself with only the people who can make you better.

I haven't written anything here for quite some time. I exactly don't have anything to share anyway, but I felt that for the past few days, life has been good. It continuously gives me reasons to smile and look forward to a new day and just be happy. It may not be how I exactly want it to be at the moment, but surely, I can say that everything will eventually fall in its proper place and for now, I just need to remind myself that I am blessed and that good things are bound to happen.

Attracting positive thoughts for positive outputs :)

Saw this in the mail tonight. It was nice to receive handwritten letters but it was better knowing that I have a friend that I could count on, despite time and distance, someone that will never judge and someone that believes in me and inspires me to be better and go after the life I deserve.

2012.

More lows than highs. 
More confusion than clarity. 
More doubts than certainty. 

There are just so many things you can never foresee
My life has never been what I see in my head
Instead its more of what life gives me
And I try my best to make it work.

Nevertheless, here's to the year of struggle.
For all the things I discovered about myself.
For being a tad bit wiser and a tad bit better.
Most importantly being challenged to be ME.

I felt that this year, the insides of me died.
And in every death there is a beginning.
Here's to what's in store in 2013.
I claim it to be MY year, by hook or by crook.

I pray for Clarity. Patience. Acceptance. Perseverance. Faith.
May it be a completely different and absolutely thrilling 2013!

12272012.MOA.

. The constants. Couldn't be any more grateful for them. 

Great food. Even better company. 

Christmas Traditions. Exchanging gifts. 

It really is more fun to celebrate holidays with the family. 

So I haven't written anything here for quite sometime and it really has been a crazy month actually. Having spent 2 weeks in the school where my sister teaches watching over the little kids and seeing them play and dance and prepare for their Christmas party. There's endless partying and shopping in between also. I just got down from a quick trip to Baguio, to witness my friends' wedding. Weddings are my favorite events, I just love celebrating love and sharing these kinds of moments with the people we love. If there's anything that this month has taught me, its the importance of the little things in life. Seeing people you haven't seen for a long time; reconnecting with old friends; having fun with family and friends. This life may always be crazy but in between are more subtle moments where we can just take in everything and still see the beauty of life. My life hasn't been really good not exactly ideal in fact, but yet, I still find it beautiful. It is beautiful because of the people I have in it. It is beautiful because of the many things that happens a midst the craziness of it. It is still beautiful because inspite and despite everything, I can still feel, witness, and the most important of all share love. Its Christmas in a few days, and isn't  it that Jesus' birth is the best symbol of how much God loves us?  So I hope that in between the crazy traffic, last minute shopping and partying this holiday season may we not forget to share the love that has been given to us. It really is the main reason why we are celebrating it anyway.

As I'm writing this down and I reflect on so many things in my life, I guess its time to reconnect with my faith once more. No better way to celebrate the holidays than realizing what it really is for. 

Will Grayson, WIll Grayson

Just finished reading Will Grayson, Will Grayson by John Green and David Levithan.

I swear I am in love with these two writers. Separately they're amazing \what more if you combine their genius in a book its double the genius. WHAT? But seriously, they have the capability to actually bring you into another world and another dimension and make you forget of your own reality and just enjoy the characters of the story. And also they never forget to deliver endless life quotes in a book. This one isn't any different as I actually have a bunch of pictures of these and there are a number of dog-eared pages in my book. I can actually read this book again and again and again and again.

One more thing going for this book is its main idea. How you come into terms with who you are and being friends with people and how to be a friend and it even touches on gay awareness, but most importantly the book teaches its readers how to confront different and difficult emotions all together. Its crazy, really you should pick this one up. I'm not so sure with what I'm writing or why I am writing this but all I really want to say is this book is too awesome for my life. I swear. It has such a depth of love in its different forms.

Its a genius concept written by really incredible writers and in an unorthodox way. Yes. This book is unorthodox. And I just completely fell in love with it.

me: you know what sucks about love?
o.w.g: what?
me: that it's so tied to the truth.

- Will Grayson, Will Grayson, Green & Levithan, 2010

Let It Snow

I felt so alone on that train.. a weird unnatural kind of alone that bore into me. It was feeling just beyond fear and somewhere to the left of sadness.Tired but not the kind of tired that sleep fixes. Ir was dark and gloomy, and yet, it didn't seem that things would get any better if the were turned up. If anything, I would be able to get a much better look at my unpleasant situation.- Jubilee, The Jubilee Express

 There is always the risk: something is good and good and good and good, and then all at once it gets awkward. All at once, she sees you looking at her, and then she doesn't want to joke around with you anymore, because she doesn't want to seem flirty, because she doesn't want you to think she likes you. It's such a disaster, whenever, in the course of human relationships, someone begins to chisel away at the wall of separation between friendship and kissing. Breaking down the wall that is the kind of story that might have a happy middle-- o, look, we broke down this wall, I'm going to look at you like a girl and you're going to look at me like a boy and we're going to play a fun game called Can I Put My Hand There What About There What About There. And sometimes that happy middle looks so great that you can convince yourself that it's not the middle that will last forever. - Tobin, Cheertastic Christmas Miracle

But then again (and here is one of my main complaints about human consciousness): one you think a thought, it is extremely difficult to unthink it. And I had thought the thought. - Tobin, Cheertastic Christmas Miracle

Aladdin :)

After a few days of caving in at the house I finally decided, or my body had such a good nights rest that I was able to actually get up and drive and leave the house, to go take a look at the Aladdin The New Stage Musical at the Meralco Theater.

I've always been fascinated with theater productions. Theater has always been the one thing I wish I could be a part of, again. I remember the adrenaline of having to go through everything from stage design, props, to costume, the makeup, the actors, to lights and music and nothing compares to the feeling of seeing it come alive all at once.

I've always fallen in love with stage production especially with the lights. I've always been fascinated by dancing lights and how it creates more meaning, depth and reality into a scene. A wrong lighting could potentially ruin everything. This is what I liked best about the play though, the production was a feast for the eyes. The lights were gorgeous, the sets were also drop dead. Its amazing how they were able to re-create the palace, the street market and yes, even the flying carpet. I could just imagine, jaws dropped when this was happening on stage. I swear, the kid in me was extra giddy, alive and kicking!

This musical has a totally new approach to the story. It has comic reliefs here and there which tied seamlessly to the story itself. It wasn't trying too hard, it was put in places and it wasn't over killed. It was really a joy to watch, the costume, music and set gives off the 'Arabian nights' vibe that the story really asks for.

I never really thought that this story was actually the best story among all of the Disney Princess. Aladdin have these subtle morals injected here and there that both kids and adults could learn from. Its lessons are important in living our own happily ever after.

Kryzha Veron :)

TO THE SLOWEST PERSON TO GET ALL THE JOKES, ALL THE TIME, 

TO THE PERSON THAT GETS 'BULLIED' EVERY TIME AND YET LOVES US STILL

TO ONE OF THE MOST TALENTED PEOPLE THERE IS IN THIS WORLD

and

TO ONE OF MY FAVORITE GIRLS IN THE WHOLE OF YFC AND THE WORLD...

Happy birthday Zha! :) May this year be a year of love, hope, happiness and success for you! :)

Though we have not seen in each other in months and I've been out of the loop in your life, know that I am proud (proudest at that) of the person that you're slowly becoming to be. Always remember what I said before 'stop comparing yourself to me (or in this case, to other people), and just be YOU'; because, you, no matter how slow and lost and corny you are, you are awesome and great in your own way. You are special like that. :)

 I love you, Zha. I'll always be here for you, whether it be your needs for MTQ or for anything in the world, really. Continue being passionate with what you do, sharing God's greatness in your life to other people and be a blessing to everyone you are with, because you are.

Happy birthday, again! :) I better see you soon woman. We have a lot to catch up on. :)
Love you to the end of time, Catapia.

I really wish that I could write something of substance and life more here but I can't write about life because, I haven't been living it. When will I ever get the chance to anyway? Oh, the world of the unknown.

A 'big girl' kind of night for me! First time that I went out at night without my sister! HAHA.

Missed these bunch of people from college. Last time I've seen them was graduation. OA sa tagal please.

Indeed, some things never change, will always be grateful to have met them! Here's to getting old(er) together! :)

*All pics by Tiffany!